Well that was a big fat fail...

Here it is...June 10, 2013. My original goal was to be 199 lbs by this month. Did it happen? Did I manage to stops making excuses and actually get my fat butt to the gym?? No, not really. 199? More like 263.0 lbs. (although at least it is less than the 268.6 lbs i was when i started this blog...) But I didn't meet my goal. But that is because I never did anything. I can sit around all day SAYING I want to lose weight, be fit, blah blah blah. But my words don't matter. Only my actions do. I can't "think myself thin." I have to actually get off the couch. Easier said than done my friend. I've been making excuses for almost 32 years now and I am damn good at it. I have talked myself out of healthy eating and working out. But last week, that all changed. 

Last week I had a few "episodes" that made me reevaluate my life. I decided to take my health MUCH more seriously. I signed up for monthly orders of Shakeology supplement shakes and I ordered the Team Beachbody Turbo Fire DVD set. I recommitted myself to eating healthy. I need to set a good example for my children. I want to be here to watch them grow up. 

I've been faithfully drinking my Shakeology shakes every morning. And they are AMAZING. They taste great and keep me full for HOURS! And today the real challenge began. I popped the Turbo Fire DVD in for the first time. What I learned is...I am a spazz! I don't know my right from my left and I have no idea how they get their legs to kick so high! But you know what? I finished the workout. And the additional Stretch 10. And I feel amazing. I KNOW I can do this. I KNOW I can. I have to stop being lazy. Stop making excuses. Stop lying to myself and saying that one trip to Taco Bell is OK. (No. It isn't. Not for me. Not right now.)  I'm going to get there. One step at a time. One "oh my good my legs are so weak I can barely step" at a time. 

An introduction of sorts...

Let's face it. I am FAT. Not "could stand to lose a few pounds" fat, but "one hamburger away from a heart attack" fat. At my heaviest (June 2011) I weighed in at 284.1 lbs. As if that isn't bad enough, I am only 5'2"...I can't believe I let myself get this big. I began dieting and working out and the weight began to slowly drop off. S-L-O-W-L-Y. By New Years Day 2012 I had reached 264.8 pounds. I told you it was slow. 20 pounds in 6 months is too slow for me. I get impatient when I don't see results. I'm sure you can guess what happened next. School started, my crappy eating resumed, my workouts diminished and by June 2012 I was up to 274.6. I feel like I am rambling so let's just cut to the chase. I'm 31 years old and 268.6 lbs. My lifestyle needs to change. I have 2 young children that I want to watch grow. I do not want to die at age 50. This blog will chronical my journey back to the "One-derland." I haven't been there in almost ten years. But I want to be there again by June 2013. It is going to take some work and determination. And lots of changes on my part. But I am ready. Let's do this. Let's enter the One-derland...